The good news is that I've found a place to live and I'm moving on Saturday. So excited and exciting to be leaving this apartment, which as been great, don't get me wrong, but wow, I am so glad to leaving. Great in that it's been awesome living in San Francisco, living on a busy hip street above shops and restaurants, and really, I've always wanted to live in a place like this but now I get to live on my own plus two cats in a really great space over in Oakland. I looked at around twenty five apartments over the last six weeks. Of those twenty five, the one I'm moving into is the only one I got excited about. Yesterday my roommate said moving to Oakland is a good idea. More like a good feeling. Searching searching searching and stressing for a while is a productive process. Like writing a poem or teaching a class. Thank you for your support.

But about that housing search, this city is so crazy. I've lived in five big U.S. cities and I've never had to work as hard to find an acceptable place to live. And I'm no slouch. The story is that the dot com people really changed the landscape as far as affordability in the mid 90's. A huge influx of people with money came to the area and ever since the powers that be have been catering to them as well as the standard corporate interests, which of course, is nothing new. Gavin Newsom did not do nearly as much as he could of in terms of keeping affordable housing in the city, and I've read that the homelessness problem in San Francisco can partly be attributed to Newsom and Brown's development policies. The working class have largely been pushed out of the city. That said, sometimes new comers like me luck into affordable situations like the apartment I've been in. I had no idea how good I had it until trying to find a comparable situation elsewhere. And then there are the people that have always lived here, the family that live on the second floor of this building, Six people in an apartment the same size as the one my roommate and I have shared with two cats.

It's hard not indulge in bitterness or cynicism around this whole process. The stencil on the sidewalk reads: "Sanctuary City for the Rich." And there is some truth in that, but more personally, I want to live in a humane space, i.e. a space with room for everybody, a little sun, a heater. Last Saturday I met the property manager at my new place, walked into the apartment, looked around, thought, wow, this is amazing, and said, wow, this is amazing, I'd love to rent it, and she said okay, send me your stuff, and that was that. There wasn't an involved process, there wasn't twenty desperate people trying to make a good impression, there wasn't a fax machine or rental application or gigantic impersonal landholder involved. So simple! They way it should be. In other news, an old poem was recently published by the journal Bath House, along with an audio version of the poem which is kind of cool. Have a listen.

Two Found Poems from Chinese (Teach Yourself 1991)

Exercise 1.3

1. Mr King invites me to drink Chinese tea.
2. Mr Li greatly dislikes Mr King. (Mr Li can't stand Mr. King.)
3. Mr King doesn't like Mr Li much either.
4. You don't thank me so I don't thank you either.

Exercise 20.3

1. All Chinese like eating Chinese food.
2. Any branch of the Bank of China has the same exchange rate for changing money.
3. Current accounts and deposit accounts have different rates of interest.
4. I have to change my traveller's cheques into US dollars today.
5. When you go abroad you have to take your passport (with you) otherwise you can't leave the __country.
6. Asia and Africa are very different from a historical point of view.
7. Do you still remember her telephone number? Don't forget to give her a call tomorrow whatever __you do.
8. Politically speaking European countries are pretty much the same with a few minor differences.
9. Regardless of whether you've signed (your name) or not, I want to look at your passport.
10. No matter whether the bank clerk had counted the money several times or not, he wanted to (had ___to) count it (once).
11. What you're saying is that you'll only get to know him if you happen to bump into him, is that it?
12. I won't do it like this unless there are regulations.

Yesterday evening I went to look at a studio in the Mission. It was pretty small. Not enough room for my big sweaty body and two full bodied cats. Bodice. Bodie. Broom stick. It's impossible. To find. An affordable apartment in San Francisco. I'm slowly going insane. I also went to look at a studio in the Tenderloin. At 4 o'clock. Yesterday. Sharp. It was a nice place. However it was in the heart of the heart of the heart of the Tenderloin which is quite possibly the nastiest place in all of San Francisco. Not necessarily dangerous though it is, but in my experience the strung out drug addicts generally keep to themselves. San Francisco values or something like it. Tolerance, coupled with an implicit agreement to not cause problems. Shit on the sidewalks. Chinese food and no grocery stores. Three blocks in and three blocks out. Jones street.

Really sorry to keep complainin' but I'm hopin' this folksy turn in mah prose will make this post a lot o fun to read. End. On the bright side of things school and classes are going well. Two large but good groups of 202 students, and the support classes, though a little boring, are nice work (if you can get it). Pronunciation lab has also settled in with a couple groups of steady students. Barak Obama. The stress is on the second syllable of his first name which tells us that it's not a name with English origins. Like Andy. Or Susan. Um. Did I mention that one of my cats has been falling over lately and I had to take him the emergency veterinarian two nights ago? His diagnosis: "lameness on the left back limb." The good doctor provided pain medication, either to treat his sprain or arthritus, but either way nothing is broken and he seems to moving around a little better today than yesterday, so as, it's was just a little injury not a life ending neurological disorder.

Asides from the above I have nothing else to report. Scott Walker is messing up Wisconsin. It's exciting to be reading about what's happening in the middle east and I'm so glad Twitter is no longer part of the discussion. It's been raining here for the last couple days but has stopped as of this morning. My other cat is snoring. Every time I see a car with a for sale sign in it I think to myself, "maybe I could live out of that car." So sorry. Housing is all I can think about. I should go. By this time next week I will have either found a place or really be freaking out. See you later!

Yesterday evening I went to go look at a studio in the Haight. It was pretty nice. Two rooms including huge kitchen and a bathtub that seemed to be dug out of the ground. It was priced at the usual close to a thousand dollars a month that most studios that are somewhat close to downtown are priced at, so as, it was a good deal relatively speaking. Because it was a deal, there were twenty people in and out of the apartment while I was there, filling out the application, and I really doubt it will be offered, which is just as good because I really can't afford to pay that much. Two hours previous to that I rang Kristen's doorbell to discuss renting her room but unfortunately she did not answer. I imagined the other roommates looking down at me from the windows as I rang #25, and deciding not to answer the door based on my appearance. A lady walked by with a dog and I asked her, "Are you Kristen?" No, she was not.

But it's still early in San Francisco March housing match play fantasy playoff round robin sudden death tournament. By next Wednesday I will start to freak out a little bit more noticeably. Ariel is in the same situation, and as we talked about the misery of the search while sitting at the part-time ESL computer terminals, we smiled, but only because it's inappropriate to appear despondant at an education institution. Night termors. Cold sweats. Terrible dreams. Bursting into tears while watching a New York Times video about safe injection clinics in Vancouver, and the line, "I have to get clean so I can be with my family." But really, it's not that bad. I'm exadurrading. Really. I have faith that I'll find a good situation, as I always have before. It's just an unpleasant process, and very time consuming. Like, consuming the entire month February, not to mention packing. Yeah.

After viewing the studio I met up with Steven to attended a "class" at the the Free University of San Francisco on Nietzsche, which was more like a discussion group but it was interesting and worthwhile. A good idea, a free University, one that needs a lot of work, but I'm into the idea of not having to pay for self improvement. Some things, like poetry for example, work better when one's livelihood is not part of the equation. At at at at at at any any any any any any rate rate rate rate rate, the semester has also become insanely busy: nine hours of ESL support on Monday followed by three hours of ESL support and three hours of teaching pronunciation on Tuesday make for a draining two days. I'm glad I have the work and need the money, but I always have to be careful about taking on too much work, as when I start to get drained in a particular social/spiritual way it leads to lapses in self-care. So far so good though. I have to get ready for class now. See you.

I start teaching today. The semester started Monday where I supported an Industrial Design classs called Industrial Processes, a six hour class that let out around ten thirty in the morning because there was nothing to do with the six hours until the students started in on their projects, supporting the argument made by students who don't show up on the first day because "nothing happens on the first day." These were graduate students though, so everybody was there. With the rest of the day off I did some reading and looked for apartments, sat in a chair with a hot water bottle on the small of my back which I tweaked the other day while vacuuming up cat hair. Yes I own a vacuum and yes my life is really that boring or as my aunt put it to me a while back, facetiously I think though one never knows, sometimes not even the speaker, "so you've decided to live a life of the mind." Heart and body too I hope.

On Tuesday I supported a class called The Language of Photography which sounds really exciting but actually seems to be the same stuff I supported last semester in a Digital Photography class. The upshot is again, it's a graduate school class so maybe the content is more interesting. Both of the support classes this semester are taught by seemingly pretty accomplished folks, for example the Photography teacher helped make Sketchers' first ad campaign. Which is not only impressive, but courageous of him to admit. Just kidding. I'm sorry. I don't mean to be snarky. I just wanted to use the word "courageous." Over winter break when I rode up to see Adam with Ted, Ted told me that when somebody would tell my father a really stupid idea, my father would respond that he thought it was courageous of them to attempt it. I'd like to think he was being more earnest than snarky, trying to find a way to stay open to possiblity.

Which brings me to Today, teaching an actual class at three thirty but the morning and early afternoon are clear for this blog, class preparation, and a little writing. On Thursday the schedule is basically the same, with the morning here replaced by a morning at the writing lab. Anyway. This is boring. Which is somewhat intentional because I'm looking for apartments, and I just assume that when I sign my name at the end of an email some potential roommate will run it through Google and end up at this blog. Because it's important to check people out. Sometimes. Which is why I'd like to reiterate if you're new to this blog, that this blog is a kind of journal, but it's also a writing project, and I'm a totally awesome roommate. Would you also like to live with two cats? I have a one nice rug (6x4) and am very clean. Looking for apartments sucks. See you on Craigslist.