Getting in the way of one's immediate sense through the elongation of personal style is a problem, something I worry about getting caught up in the echo of memory rather than the actual what is around us now pick you head up and speak look your neighbor directly in the eye and open your jacket offer them a stick of gum get out the right amount of change at the bus stop prepare your day at work get busy fade out come back walk down the street recognize those who commonly ask for change think to yourself that Oakland is a tough town maybe very unlike other places I have lived the easier versions of white liberal cities or fragile utopias like New York or San Francisco where a couple bad days of product supply failures can create major sustainability problems then again who knows people adapt like the rose is a rose is a rose complex take a nap get off work early contemplate never coming back what you would say to your boss if you could the other options we might have the trace of a life through the moods of the weeks and the push against what is working or will not and coming to an awareness and changing like the spehx wasp moving a grub close to the nest but first checking on its young and when it goes back outside to grab the food the scientists have moved it and so it moves the grub back into place by the entrance and goes back inside to check on its babies and then out and the scientists have moved it etc. the man said this is creative process recognizing patterns but who knows I do my best school is coming to a close thankfully only two more weeks and instead of a grand finale its more like a deflating hot air balloon the view was great but how am I going to get to my car from here and where am I anyway?