now here i'm back from where i worked today which happens to be located on the upper east side in new york city and happens to be located kiddie corner to where that big explosion was earlier today so when i got there to work there were all these firetrucks and big clouds of smoke and i thought "fire" and proceeded into the back of my building to take the elevator but earlier when i got on the train to go to work the trains were all screwed up as far as taking the four or the five because somebody got killed up at the astor place stop and so the trains were all screwed up and had to wait a little while before finding a space on one of the packed trains heading north to the east side so the thing is if the trains hadn't been mucked up i would of gotten to where i was going a little earlier and would of been right there to hear the explosion which would of been surprising to me i'm sure instead i knew nothing for a little while and said to the elevator guy that it was a screwed up morning and he agreed and told me about the explosion and the subway death and i was surprised enough to immediately turn on the radio as soon as i got into the apartment i was working in and learned after a little while that the explosion was a gas leak on fire and perhaps a suicide attempt by a doctor who was divorcing his wife and didn't want to sell the ten million dollar building so instead blew it up with himself in it and i'm sure he was surprised that he didn't die as much as the fire fighters were surprised to pull him out from beneath a burning pile of rubble